I have this strange new anxiety associated with making goals. It's not so much a fear of success, but a fear that I wont be able to prove the people that doubted me wrong. I think it's one of those cases of focusing on the negative rather than the positive, but it makes it impossible for me to make even little goals, like going back to school because I wonder if maybe the people were right about me not being successful. Then I feel if I do succeed it will be pointless because the losers wont even be there to see me win and prove them wrong. It sounds petty, but I feel like that would make the success even sweeter, and if I cant have that, then why bother? I was pursuing music and I had so many people tell me it wasn't a good idea, and now I start to feel myself that its not a good idea, maybe they're right and what's the point? The losers who told me that were either people I didn't know well or estranged family members. So even if I did become successful, I wouldn't be able to prove it to them. I then go into a cycle of just hating people in general for being close minded, dreamless, unimaginative people. Of course, there have been many supporters, but I can only focus on the negative in the past few months and it makes it hard to make and accomplish even basic goals, like leaving the house. Does anyone else understand this mess!? Any advice would really be appreciated.