[Funkygrub]

Lately I have wanted to stay to myself more than anything. I don't know why this is but even if I do have friends over or am out with them having a good time I want to go home. I cannot have fun or allow myself to for that matter. There is always some insecurity or anxiety creeping in. If someone asks me if I want to go out I say no or cancel plans. I feel that i am going to drive all my friends away but sadly it feels like I want to? But at the same time I dont? I am confused to say the least. :|