I understand what you're talking about. I always feel like when I have a conversation with someone, online or offline, I have to change the way I am to keep the conversation going and keep it interesting. I'm not up on the current fashion trends, celebrity gossip, television shows, and such and when people mention them, I don't have an opinion on it because I simply wasn't interested in it enough to find out about it, so now I have nothing to say on the matter. I've faked conversations and it feels like a huge chore. Such as:
Person: Did you see that new show called blah, blah?
Me: Uh, sure.
Person: Wasn't the first episode funny? I would never do that.
Me: I wouldn't either.
Person: And Candis, doesn't she just get under your skin?
Me: Well, I'm still on the fence about her.
Person: My friend is, too. I can't wait until the next show.
Me: Me, either.
And that's if I can fake it well and the other person isn't paying too much attention. Other times, I've been called strange, boring, weird, etc., because I didn't know about whatever frivolous news or show is currently hot. It's just I'm not interested in that, so I don't find it at all interesting to talk about.
I feel like I have to give up being myself to have a normal conversation and it, to me, doesn't seem worth it.
I do believe if you find people with interests similar to your own conversations between you won't feel like that.
Person: Did you see that new show called blah, blah?
Me: Uh, sure.
Person: Wasn't the first episode funny? I would never do that.
Me: I wouldn't either.
Person: And Candis, doesn't she just get under your skin?
Me: Well, I'm still on the fence about her.
Person: My friend is, too. I can't wait until the next show.
Me: Me, either.
And that's if I can fake it well and the other person isn't paying too much attention. Other times, I've been called strange, boring, weird, etc., because I didn't know about whatever frivolous news or show is currently hot. It's just I'm not interested in that, so I don't find it at all interesting to talk about.
I feel like I have to give up being myself to have a normal conversation and it, to me, doesn't seem worth it.
I do believe if you find people with interests similar to your own conversations between you won't feel like that.