I know how you feel. People seem to think its best to leave me alone when i'm feeling depressed, when actually its when I need to be around people the most.
Yes that is exactly how i am. And most of the time, it's not that i want them around so i can talk about my depression. I just want to have somewhere there that'll keep my mind off of it, and maybe make me feel like i don't have it so bad afterall if i'm sitting here talking to someone and yucking it up enjoying their company. I rather have someone distracting me then being isolated and flooded with depressing thoughts.
But i also very do much understand why some of you prefer to not be around people when your depressed. Sometimes it's hard to talk about. And it feel like whenever i'm depressed, it drives people away. Even if i don't actually talk about it that much, people can tell. Then they keep their distence from me which makes me think they don't care if i'm sad, they only keep me around when i'm in a good mood and can entertain them.
But i also know that when i'm depressed, i get moody, and i say things i wouldn't normally say and act how i would'nt normally act. Sometimes people get upset with me for being depressed, and that makes me even more depressed. I'm not chooseing to be depressed here.
Yes I agree really don't like to talk to people when I'm depressed. Well, obviously I talk to my shrink but it's so hard to hear myself try and decipher my tangled emotions.
Yes, when i'm depressed, i feel it, but i can't explain it. I can't decipher it. Does your shrink help untangle those emotions? Mine impresses me sometimes when i try and explain something but it just doesn't come out right, and so then she says it for me in a way that makes sense. So then that opens a door of why i'm feeling that way, and finally..... what to do about it. I think i need to start seeing my shrink more often again.
