In 2009, on Dec 31st, I tried to take my own life. I was in a mental hospital on New Years Day. My life didnt suck, it was a complete NIGHTMARE. I felt as though I was battling the devil himself, I really did and I could not look forward to another year of this torture. 3 years later, I am doing much better but still have a long way to go. Believe me, I know how you feel and then some, but dont ever try to take your life. Its permenate and you cant take that decision back.