Hi, my name is Care and I'm new. I have suffered with social anxiety for as long as I can remember. Almost every interaction is hard and leaves me fearful. I'm scared of being judged by others. Not having the right words to say.
Welcome! You've found a great place to get advice, vent, etc, all without having to explain yourself!
That fear of judgement is the SA talking...and I don't think it ever goes away. What it does do is diminish to the point when you can say "that's stupid and I know it's not real". That takes time and practice. I've been trying my whole life and only been able to do things about it in the last ten years or so. But as my presence here shows, I'm not able to do that all of the time either.