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i went to an all girls school and was bullied from my first day, it really didnt help with my anxiety and has made me so much worse now, my anxiety was uncontrollable i was vomiting at the thought of school
i would work myself up so much, id have sweat dripping from me and my chest would tighten and so on so forth i bet you all know how i felt
i ended up not leaving my bed for 2 months, crying every night etc
my aunty saw this and decided i should move to her house in the country for awhile, i didnt enjoy it at all but after 5 months i started going to school everyday and made a friend but i then went into depression again and missed my home in sydney so i thought i was ready to go home and live on my own again
i was wrong, i have started my new school, an art school, the school of my dreams
i loved it on my first day, my best friend from kindy goes there so i knew someone so that put my anxiety at ease but now i hate it
i have started making myself sick over the thought of it
i am really not looking forward to going on monday, i have to do a speech in front of all these people i dont know
i have no friends there
i feel like everyone is just looking at me judging me hating me
i cry all the time now i dont know what to do
its the school of my dreams but i still feel like everyone hates me
i want to take some sort of medication to put my paranoia and anxiety at ease so i can actually walk up to someone and talk to them
i know i should do all that breathing **** and not go to drugs but i've tried all that stuff for years and it doesnt work for me
im getting worse and im afraid that just because of my anxiety i will put my whole future at risk
does anyone have anything that they know works for them?
i would work myself up so much, id have sweat dripping from me and my chest would tighten and so on so forth i bet you all know how i felt
i ended up not leaving my bed for 2 months, crying every night etc
my aunty saw this and decided i should move to her house in the country for awhile, i didnt enjoy it at all but after 5 months i started going to school everyday and made a friend but i then went into depression again and missed my home in sydney so i thought i was ready to go home and live on my own again
i was wrong, i have started my new school, an art school, the school of my dreams
i loved it on my first day, my best friend from kindy goes there so i knew someone so that put my anxiety at ease but now i hate it
i have started making myself sick over the thought of it
i am really not looking forward to going on monday, i have to do a speech in front of all these people i dont know
i have no friends there
i feel like everyone is just looking at me judging me hating me
i cry all the time now i dont know what to do
its the school of my dreams but i still feel like everyone hates me
i want to take some sort of medication to put my paranoia and anxiety at ease so i can actually walk up to someone and talk to them
i know i should do all that breathing **** and not go to drugs but i've tried all that stuff for years and it doesnt work for me
im getting worse and im afraid that just because of my anxiety i will put my whole future at risk
does anyone have anything that they know works for them?
