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i just wanted to see if anybody could give me some advice on whether you think I could possibly have low testosterone or social anxiety or something else.
To start off, I do know I have had low confidence from being young. When I was in high school it was only slightly low and got worse growing up.
When I was around 14/15 I did used to love going out with mates, doing stuff, drinking, going to parties and I would say I was quite popular in the area. Then when I turned 16 and left school it was just like a switch in my head clicked and I hated all that. When that happened I stayed in for around 3 months and didnt speak to any friends, only my mum and sister who i lived with. I did start going out again but only with around 3 friends. During that 'off period' of sitting in all the time and barely going out I piled on the weight. That carried on until I was around 18. Once I weighed myself and seen the scales at 16.5stone, I went on a serious diet and went down to 10.5stone in a quite short time.
Now 21, I have kept the weight off and I am covered head to toe in stretch marks and cellulite. Being like this and my confidence going to an all time low I did start to get depressed. I did see my doctor who said he thought I had a slight depression and just told me to go see somebody (which I refused as I dont want to sit in a room with a stranger talking about it).
It is getting quite bad now as it is beginning to restrict me from doing things such as, Ive never been on a holiday with any friends as I dont want to show my body. I dont go on nights out as I feel extremely self conscious in social situations. Or if i do go out then I drink until I 'forget to be consious' and ended up in an ambulance once. I also had to turn down being a godparent for my best friends first child as I couldnt bare the thought of being stood up in front of everybody in church.
I also have hardly any sex drive at all. I have kissed a girl or two in my teens but thats the most it has been (never anything else). I would feel too socially awkward to be with a girl too. I never go out to meet girls as it is, but with this on top, im gunna be the 40 year old virgin :lol:
I just dont know what is wrong with me, somebody of my age is usually out all the time, gettign with girls, going on holidays, doing things. But me, im always sat at home, on a constant diet, i feel like crap, im constantly tired, hate social situations, i know i am ugly. I just hate myself and the way I am.
I have looked at low testosterone and social anxiety and have seen that I do relate to a lot of the symptoms and thought that it could be a possibility and just wanted some advice as to what it could be if not.
Sorry for this being so long, but I just needed to put everything in.
Any help would be appreciated.
To start off, I do know I have had low confidence from being young. When I was in high school it was only slightly low and got worse growing up.
When I was around 14/15 I did used to love going out with mates, doing stuff, drinking, going to parties and I would say I was quite popular in the area. Then when I turned 16 and left school it was just like a switch in my head clicked and I hated all that. When that happened I stayed in for around 3 months and didnt speak to any friends, only my mum and sister who i lived with. I did start going out again but only with around 3 friends. During that 'off period' of sitting in all the time and barely going out I piled on the weight. That carried on until I was around 18. Once I weighed myself and seen the scales at 16.5stone, I went on a serious diet and went down to 10.5stone in a quite short time.
Now 21, I have kept the weight off and I am covered head to toe in stretch marks and cellulite. Being like this and my confidence going to an all time low I did start to get depressed. I did see my doctor who said he thought I had a slight depression and just told me to go see somebody (which I refused as I dont want to sit in a room with a stranger talking about it).
It is getting quite bad now as it is beginning to restrict me from doing things such as, Ive never been on a holiday with any friends as I dont want to show my body. I dont go on nights out as I feel extremely self conscious in social situations. Or if i do go out then I drink until I 'forget to be consious' and ended up in an ambulance once. I also had to turn down being a godparent for my best friends first child as I couldnt bare the thought of being stood up in front of everybody in church.
I also have hardly any sex drive at all. I have kissed a girl or two in my teens but thats the most it has been (never anything else). I would feel too socially awkward to be with a girl too. I never go out to meet girls as it is, but with this on top, im gunna be the 40 year old virgin :lol:
I just dont know what is wrong with me, somebody of my age is usually out all the time, gettign with girls, going on holidays, doing things. But me, im always sat at home, on a constant diet, i feel like crap, im constantly tired, hate social situations, i know i am ugly. I just hate myself and the way I am.
I have looked at low testosterone and social anxiety and have seen that I do relate to a lot of the symptoms and thought that it could be a possibility and just wanted some advice as to what it could be if not.
Sorry for this being so long, but I just needed to put everything in.
Any help would be appreciated.
