Listen, prescribing Xanax for 5 years was a horrible decision on your original doctor's part. This is not a long term drug. There are thousands of horror stories of coming off these drugs and detoxing. These drugs are addictive and they make your anxiety even worse when you don't take them. Listen I know you feel good but you would feel good on Heroin too and you would be telling people it's the only thing that makes you feel normal. You need to detox off the drug maybe go to a detox center. Alternatively you can possibly try alternatives like Baclofen and come up with a plan to get off of it with your psychiatrist. These drugs were meant to be PRN, as in maybe you have some huge social gathering, but the more you take it the more you realize how normal you are on it and you end up doing way worse when not on it.