I've had social anxiety for as far back as I could remember but I was able to cope with it by having close friends during high school. After high school I lost my friends and I went through a traumatic experience that created something worse the past 4 years. I no longer can look people the in the eye while talking, I would quickly look away and people would think I am intentionally ignoring them which leads to other problems but I'm not.. It just happens.
I want to know if other people have trouble concentrating on things.. I have trouble looking at just everyday items even while I'm alone. It feels as if there is this huge pressure on my eyes and it hurts to look at anything and sometimes I have trouble breathing and experience massive headaches... I experience this 10 folds worse when I'm around people or even just stepping outside my home.. When I look at somebody for too long it's even worse... My parents never talk with me, they never were able to communicate with either my brother or me. They don't understand my problem they think I'm doing it on purpose and they even started muttering evil things about me while I'm around them but I'm not doing it on purpose!! Since I don't have any friends that can understand my situation it is even harder, and I've tried making friends but people just think I'm weird or I'm an ******* because I can't keep a conversation going... I've dropped out of college, skipped classes, experienced harassment from other people which led to more trauma.. more than once, and resorted to total isolation..
I know one thing I'm always doing when I'm outside.
"Watching for signs that people are judging us"
I'm constantly wondering if people are thinking about me and talking bad about me.
I've been experiencing depression because of this and I've tried taking medication but stopped a year ago after reading all the negative side effects, I felt it wasn't worth risking having more problems just to find a pharmaceutical fix.. I've thought of suicide but I don't go through with it in hopes that I can fix this problem... Has anybody heard or experienced my problem.. I really want to fix this so I can move on with my life!
I want to know if other people have trouble concentrating on things.. I have trouble looking at just everyday items even while I'm alone. It feels as if there is this huge pressure on my eyes and it hurts to look at anything and sometimes I have trouble breathing and experience massive headaches... I experience this 10 folds worse when I'm around people or even just stepping outside my home.. When I look at somebody for too long it's even worse... My parents never talk with me, they never were able to communicate with either my brother or me. They don't understand my problem they think I'm doing it on purpose and they even started muttering evil things about me while I'm around them but I'm not doing it on purpose!! Since I don't have any friends that can understand my situation it is even harder, and I've tried making friends but people just think I'm weird or I'm an ******* because I can't keep a conversation going... I've dropped out of college, skipped classes, experienced harassment from other people which led to more trauma.. more than once, and resorted to total isolation..
I know one thing I'm always doing when I'm outside.
"Watching for signs that people are judging us"
I'm constantly wondering if people are thinking about me and talking bad about me.
I've been experiencing depression because of this and I've tried taking medication but stopped a year ago after reading all the negative side effects, I felt it wasn't worth risking having more problems just to find a pharmaceutical fix.. I've thought of suicide but I don't go through with it in hopes that I can fix this problem... Has anybody heard or experienced my problem.. I really want to fix this so I can move on with my life!