Okay so yesterday I was in the backroom with my manager (who I have a tiny crush on
) and he was loading some stuff on a cart for me to stock. I was just watching him and then he said, "You're looking at me like I'm crazy or something" in a funny way. I didn't know what to say to that. Then he was giving me some instructions, and then said, "You don't talk much, but you nod a lot" which is true. So what did I do? I shrugged :lol
Anyway, I remembered what he said, and maybe he wants me to talk more. So today I made some inside jokes me and him have about Tide (I'm a wal-mart stocker and he always has millions of boxes of Tide for me to put away, so I whenever he says he has something for me, I bring up the TIDE and he laughs) So we did that for awhile.
This is the biggie though. Me and my co-workers were walking in a straight line to the time clock to clock out at 7am and I reached it first just because I walk fast. It still read 6:59am, and I don't know if we're supposed to clock out after 7am or whatever, so I wasn't swiping my card yet. Everyone was standing around me (center of attention) wondering why I wasn't swiping. I said it wasn't 7am yet. There's this woman there, and me and her usually joke back and forth. She wanted to swipe out, yet nobody was, I think I scared them. I told her she's going to get docked an hours wage if she swiped out the minute early :lol (Everyone knew I was being funny) so we were all watching the clock waiting, and when it went to 7, the woman frantically swiped her card cheering that she got it first. An older man started making fun of her being "docked" and I joined in, and then she looked at me trying to look mad (but she was trying to be funny) and I said, "Okay I'm leaving now" and she laughed.
I'm slowly opening up at work. I guess I just needed to get to know my co-workers to know who will joke with me. That woman is awesome, everytime we pass in the hallway, it's not awkward because each of us expects the other to say something like, "Shouldn't you be WORKING?" or she works in fashion, so I make fun of her just lifting single t-shirts while I do the Tide thing.
It all makes me feel like I 'fit' there more.
Everytime I come into work in the morning there's another woman who is ALWAYS tidying up the coffee cans at the front of the store, and we have a joke that it's always deja vu, so as soon as I step through the door, she laughs at me because our timing is perfect. Or I won't even have to say anything, and she'll pout and go "I'm late.." because she hadn't reached the coffee yet.
Maybe all of the above is insignificant, but I actually feel like "part of the crowd" now. I can pretty much talk to anybody at work. Still a little anxiety but not as much as before.
Now how do I get my manager to ask me out?! LOL jk