Social situations feel like you're trapped in a force field and you can't express yourself because you can't think clearly. You can't get out of your head and no-one can get in because to the outside world you seem to turn off and shut down when in fact your mind is a hive of thoughts and emotion. There's nothing you'd rather do than scream and make people understand that you're not OK, but that's also your biggest fear.
Away from people, you get so cross with yourself and you can't understand what's making you think and act like that. You think about the situation over and over but it still doesn't make sense and you become a figure of hate to yourself because it's all your own creation yet you can't get away.