So, I've put off making a Facebook or Myspace account for a few years because, quite frankly, I was afraid of social networking sites. I was afraid of putting my pictures and my personal information up, afraid of sending out friend requests. That latter fear comes in two parts: 1) I was afraid of of rejection, and 2) afraid that I'm somehow being an annoyance to other people.
I finally made the jump a week or so ago and emailed a bunch of of people I knew in high school. I started with close friends, then made up way up to more causal acquaintances and friends that I had lost contact with. I even worked up the courage to send friend requests out to girls I had crushes on. You know what? It wasn't bad; in fact it was actually cathartic in some ways. Almost everyone has accepted my friend invites so far (more on that later), and several people were actually excited to see me again. Even something as small and simple as this has already increase my level of self confidence.
When I said “almost everyone has accepted”, I meant everyone except one single holdout. That person is a girl I was semi-friends with in high school, the only person I ever worked up the courage to ask out. She never explicitly said no, but she never said yes either. My SA ended up kicking in full force, and I never had the nerve to talk to her again. I've spend years ruminating over it: what I could have done differently, how things could have been.
It's been almost a week so far and she hasn't accepted. I'm pretty sure she's not going to at this point and is ignoring me, since she's had other activity on her page since then. And you know what? I'm actually happy and relieved. I feel like I can stop worrying out it, move on with my life and stop pretending like she might have had feelings for me. Making the Facebook account has been the best thing I've done all year.
I finally made the jump a week or so ago and emailed a bunch of of people I knew in high school. I started with close friends, then made up way up to more causal acquaintances and friends that I had lost contact with. I even worked up the courage to send friend requests out to girls I had crushes on. You know what? It wasn't bad; in fact it was actually cathartic in some ways. Almost everyone has accepted my friend invites so far (more on that later), and several people were actually excited to see me again. Even something as small and simple as this has already increase my level of self confidence.
When I said “almost everyone has accepted”, I meant everyone except one single holdout. That person is a girl I was semi-friends with in high school, the only person I ever worked up the courage to ask out. She never explicitly said no, but she never said yes either. My SA ended up kicking in full force, and I never had the nerve to talk to her again. I've spend years ruminating over it: what I could have done differently, how things could have been.
It's been almost a week so far and she hasn't accepted. I'm pretty sure she's not going to at this point and is ignoring me, since she's had other activity on her page since then. And you know what? I'm actually happy and relieved. I feel like I can stop worrying out it, move on with my life and stop pretending like she might have had feelings for me. Making the Facebook account has been the best thing I've done all year.
