[EveryDayIsExactlyTheSame]

There are tons of threads here and it would be foolish of me to think that some of them haven't partially or even more touched the subject I'm here to talk about. I kinda need to get this off my chest too so I apologize in advance for repeating the old stories.

I have lost interest in almost everything. I still can find some joy in music and some other secular stuff but thats not what I'm talking about. I'm talking about that spark little children get in their eyes when they see/do something interesting to them. I don't have it. I vaguely remember the feeling. Last I had it was like.. before puberty or something. Now my eyes are kind of grey and empty. Nothing suprises/ provokes deep emotional response in me. I move through my days like a zombie. For example - I bought a guitar for myself. Played with it for a little bit but I did not like it so much to get involved more specifically. Also tried painting but that didn't work out so good either. If you pick up or have a hobby then are you supposed to go through a rather strong feeling of dislike to it because it requires much effort? I always thought that hobbies are enjoyable from the start to the end. Maybe I just haven't found the right activity but this doesn't seem to be the problem here since I have tried and tried and tried.

I know you can relate since it's a major symptom of depression but I don't have it hard all the time. For example right now I feel rather happy but still nothing does seem to interest me. Talk to mee!!

 

[Jayseph]

I feel that too....or should I say 'don't feel' that too. It's so odd feeling numbed, I don't like not knowing what its like to be genuinely excited or happy or even just feeling extreme sadness anymore, I feel pain occasionally but mostly I just feel really beaten down and as good as comatose inside.

 

[dutchguy]

I have this to, I thinks it part of the depression.
Sometimes I have a idea that seems to like me. I wanted to play piano!, but when I'm getting behind my keyboard I just don't get satisfaction or joy. So I quit very often.

This is with almost everything I do in life. I only do the necessary stuff, like work, eat, sleep.
I know this is not normal, this is a result from depression. But I have this feeling for years, so I don't know better any more. I'm used to it, I cant remember a time when is was NOT feeling like this.

But I hold on, I believe there must be a way to recover. But its very hard for me to go to a doctor or something, because of anxiety but also because I'm very worried about my privacy.

 

[jordo]

I would say do something extreme to kickstart your stimulation. Do something that guarantees you will not feel emotionally dampened. I know it might be a bit expensive, but consider something like sky-diving. Seriously. There's no way you are going to be dampened in doing that. Other less expensive and realistic things, hmmm;

Snowboarding.
Ice skating.
Go karting.
Theme park (actually, probably the best suggestion).

Ever been to Alton Towers?

 

[Hypnos]

This is exactly how i feel right now. All my old hobbies i m no longer interested in, i just think they re not enough to fulfil me any longer, i need something more substantial in my life.

 

[IThinkIAmMe]

I go through stages where I am extremely uninterested in everything, and times when I am uber excited about almost anything lol (although the latter is very uncommon for me)...I have found it usually changes with the intensity of my depression at any given time

 

[shychick2]

I feel like that too. My (fill in until I get CBT) therapist has suggested doing things I enjoy or enjoyed doing. I would like to help with horses but my SA is standing in the way. I also give up easily and get put off by things going wrong e.g. I try and something negative happens or I don't feel any better and wonder what the point is.

I took up riding lessons (used to ride for a few years) but found it was serious, I always get a boring slow ploddy horse that won't move (maybe as nervous sort of person?) I felt rubbish at it and there are barriers of arranging lessons (SA) and you need to be good enough to ride out or I need to phone up trekking centres to arrange.