Sounds like me. I only have my partner. No friends and family are around.. but I dont have a 'connection' to them, kinda feel like the 'black sheep' of the family. I also am unemployed and Im always apologizing to my bf for 'dissappointing'. He says it doesnt matter. But it does to me.
Have you spoken to a doctor about not being able to concieve? Tell your doctor your trying. Also remember, conception doesnt always just happen after one or 2 or 3 times. Sometimes it can take a few years!
For me, I fell pregnant in 2005, and 'said goodbye', prolly the worst thing Ive ever gone through. The desire to have a baby after that was so intense. We've been 'reckless' ever since.. its now 2009 and I'm almost 14 weeks pregnant now. Every month for the last 4 years. Ive been waiting. So dont worry if it takes a while.
Start saving now, even if its a couple of dollars here and there. Is there much support services in your country for families?
Right now Im not financially ready, my partners doing an apprenticeship (low income) until mid next year when his income may go up higher.. but I wonder, who really is financially ready other than the rich? Love and nurturance is what makes a person. You can make it on the necessities to keep costs low.
Perhaps start buying baby stuff now? when you have the money of course. Get all that in order and dont focus too much on 'am I pregnant yet?'. It seems like everytime I forget about something, that something happens.
Ive only just found out, that even when you think your 'ready' emotionally for a family of your own, you never really are! Things I never really thought of before, are now hitting me in the face. Its a scary thing.
But goodluck and I hope it works out for you. Keep at it.
