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I have been living with my boyfriend for over 2 years now and during the past year, we have moved in and have been living with two other couples in a 3 bedroom house. My boyfriends knows the couples from high school which makes me the odd one out.
I have been struggling extra hard this past year moving to a new town with my boyfriend. I find myself hiding out in my room after work while all the roommates mingle and socialize in the dining/living room area. I hear them talking and laughing and wish I could be a part of that. I tend to tell myself that it's best to just stay in the room so I don't have to talk to anyone. It's even a challenge to make breakfast in the morning because everyone gets up for work at the same time. I find myself rushing out of the room to get what I need and rushing back before anyone sees me. It's ridiculous!
But I've finally began pushing myself to present myself during "social gatherings" in the house. Just now, I went to make myself something to eat and 3 of my roommates were in the dining room/kitchen area talking. I took a few deep breaths and walked out confidently. I said hello first and also contributed a little to the conversation they were having. Then I slipped away back into my room.
Although it was just a few brief moments socializing, I feel it was definitely a good step towards positively getting over my anxiety. I have always tried being social and always felt nervous and insecure when I did, but now that I know I have SA and have gained the knowledge that I have, I have a whole new way of thinking when walking into a social situation. It's still very hard and at times really scary, but as long as I keep my head up and stay positive...I know I can enjoy life to the fullest someday.
I have been struggling extra hard this past year moving to a new town with my boyfriend. I find myself hiding out in my room after work while all the roommates mingle and socialize in the dining/living room area. I hear them talking and laughing and wish I could be a part of that. I tend to tell myself that it's best to just stay in the room so I don't have to talk to anyone. It's even a challenge to make breakfast in the morning because everyone gets up for work at the same time. I find myself rushing out of the room to get what I need and rushing back before anyone sees me. It's ridiculous!
But I've finally began pushing myself to present myself during "social gatherings" in the house. Just now, I went to make myself something to eat and 3 of my roommates were in the dining room/kitchen area talking. I took a few deep breaths and walked out confidently. I said hello first and also contributed a little to the conversation they were having. Then I slipped away back into my room.
Although it was just a few brief moments socializing, I feel it was definitely a good step towards positively getting over my anxiety. I have always tried being social and always felt nervous and insecure when I did, but now that I know I have SA and have gained the knowledge that I have, I have a whole new way of thinking when walking into a social situation. It's still very hard and at times really scary, but as long as I keep my head up and stay positive...I know I can enjoy life to the fullest someday.
