So i've been busting my ***, talking to people and going out as much as possible now for over a year. I've been on several dates, hung out with about a dozen different people, went out to many bars and clubs, tried hitting on girls but nothing is ****ing happening. I can't get close to anyone because i don't have any close friends it ****ing sucks. It's so ****ing awkward and ridiculous trying to hang out with other people's friends it's so ridiculous going out and seeing people i know but not being able to have a normal convo with them because i'm in sync like normal social people. I just don't get it, how are we who never went out in our teenage years supposed to fit in with these people???? People like myself with no social status are of no value, they say just have confidence and you can get things in life, well how the **** do you have confidence when you can't connect with other human beings socially because you have been isolated for so long? And i'm pretty pissed because i can't get girls, everywhere i go girls are wanting to talk to me, but i don't even know where to start with them. When i'm out i don't know what to say if a girl comes up and shows interest. These skills were supposed to be learned many years ago and if i have to initiate being the guy i don't wanna come across as a creep by initiating and saying the wrong thing or something. I just want to be normal. Shouldn't there be some clear cut rule for certain skills, or especially for the opposite sex. I mean trial and error can only get you so far if you are a guy and have hardly no experience with women in your mid 20's+ how are you ever supposed to recover? There has to be a way, but so far i have done nothing but fail and act clueless. My resume with girls is embarrassing.