i still haven't moved out and am now paying the rent as well as groceries water and electricity at my parents house. i feel like i am losing my mind and like i am taking care of everybody and none of them take care of me. and i am starting to get really angry and really sad about this. first time i don't feel the beneficial heroine in the soap opera that is my life. i feel pissed at my parents for not having worked in the last 17 years. i feel pissed at my brother who thinks because he has a family of his own now he doesn't have to SEE what's right in front of his face regarding my parents and i. i feel pissed at my aunt that lives with us and that has been supporting us with her disability grant all these years for feeling like 60 is too old to to have to take care of yourself. and i am pissed at myself for staying and being stuck in this never ending cycle through my own dumb choices. i am angry for the first time in my life and its leaving me exhausted and weepy.