Like most people with SA I feel lonely. However I think my case is much more extreme than that. I'm just so depressed and isolated. I spend all my time studying, probably as a way to distract myself from my feelings. Even in lecture I don't have anyone to sit with. When I try to talk or when people ask me something and I'm slow to speak and when I do it's in short sentences or fragments. I feel like I'm painfully awkward to talk to so people avoid me. There are more than 40,000 students on my campus and I feel that can't relate to anyone. It's funny though, the thing I need the most (conversation) is also the thing that scares me the most.