Hi guys. I'll try to make this as short as possible, but I'm kind of in a panic.
I'm 20 and don't really have a history with anxiety except when I started high school - my doctor put me on Zoloft but as I got older and made more friends I decided I didn't need medication anymore. Mostly I just think I had a problem with confidence, not actual anxiety.
Now here's what happened recently:
I live in New York City, and obviously there are millions of people here. Never really bothered me until a few months ago. I was out to dinner with my boyfriend talking about our failing relationship (probably cause #1), I went outside to smoke and suddenly started feeling very sick. I barely made it to a bathroom (BARELY) and by the time I had finished doing what I had to do, I was too scared to move. I sat in that bathroom for about two hours and couldn't even think about taking a train home. I got a cab and ever since then, I can't leave the apartment without having any number of small panic attacks.
When I'm on the train, I just think about how far away from home/security I'm getting. I know it's all in my head but it's honestly ruining my life. I'm so scared of other people judging me and I'm getting very envious of everyone else. I don't have health insurance for about another month, so I really have no idea what to do. I'm at my wit's end.
Any help would be so appreciated. I don't even know what's wrong with me!
I'm 20 and don't really have a history with anxiety except when I started high school - my doctor put me on Zoloft but as I got older and made more friends I decided I didn't need medication anymore. Mostly I just think I had a problem with confidence, not actual anxiety.
Now here's what happened recently:
I live in New York City, and obviously there are millions of people here. Never really bothered me until a few months ago. I was out to dinner with my boyfriend talking about our failing relationship (probably cause #1), I went outside to smoke and suddenly started feeling very sick. I barely made it to a bathroom (BARELY) and by the time I had finished doing what I had to do, I was too scared to move. I sat in that bathroom for about two hours and couldn't even think about taking a train home. I got a cab and ever since then, I can't leave the apartment without having any number of small panic attacks.
When I'm on the train, I just think about how far away from home/security I'm getting. I know it's all in my head but it's honestly ruining my life. I'm so scared of other people judging me and I'm getting very envious of everyone else. I don't have health insurance for about another month, so I really have no idea what to do. I'm at my wit's end.
Any help would be so appreciated. I don't even know what's wrong with me!