My whole life I've given my all for everyone else's happiness. I started believing that was my calling. That I wasn't meant to be happy.. but I've noticed more this year than any year that people repay me with hatred. My ex cheated on me when I was faithful to her, and when I reluctantly told my friend she cheated on me, he went around and told everyone which I told him not to because she asked me not to tell anyone. Now, she's been out for blood for months. I get threatening facebook messages and texts of people telling me I need to watch my back.. my parents no matter how far I get from their abusiveness, I can't escape it. They call and see how I'm doing and all they do is tell me what I should be doing. I tell my coworkers what I want to do with my life and they tell me I'll never make it to be what I want to be. I feel that I need to distance myself from everyone to get back to my healthy mindset. In order to be more social.. I need to let people in, but they bring me down at the same time. Lately when people tell me I can't do something or be somebody I want to be, I lash out at them and deliberately am mean to them. I don't like doing that but it seems the only way I can get people to leave me alone is have them be afraid of me and be afraid of telling me what they think of me.. I feel wrong doing this but at the same time I get the satisfaction of telling people to screw off when they tell me I can't be the man I want to be. Is this wrong?