dax· Losing Ground
I'm really not shy- extreme anxiety is my issue. I think people think I'm shy because I will avoid them and not talk to them but it's because I'm anxious out of my mind and can't think straight or talk right (i.e. slur, trip over words, blank mind etc) I don't know about the shyness but I become so anxious I am almost incapable of performing the simplest tasks or just being in the situation. I also experience a lot of side effects from my anxiety like muscle spasms in my digestive tract that can become excruciatingly painful and uncomfortable and even blurry vision. I know it's because of anxiety because it never happens when I'm at home alone, only when I am in a state of increased anxiety, mainly at work. I go through this every day at my job- by the end of the day I have been through so much stress and anxiety that I literally become almost incapable of speech or thought and sometimes even just walking straight without losing my balance becomes tough. I was a lot more shy and a lot less anxious in HS and I can honestly say the shyness was a lot easier to deal with. Do you also suffer from anxiety or just shyness?