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I have been in therapy for three months which is paid for by my father since I have no job. I went to this CBT (individual and group) therapy to help guide me in the right direction towards developing coping mechanisms to work on my SA. This was mainly due to the fact, other than a lifelong battle with SA, I quit a phone collections job after the third day. I then practically on the verge of tears pleaded with my father to continue to support me while I get help. The main problem wasn't SA it was my lifelong battle with sleep problems. Just going through Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday with all the training exercises mainly slanted towards interacting with your co-workers and playing silly little games that had nothing to do with any training of substance, I felt my mind was constantly running wind-sprints. At the end of those days my mind was so worn down due to the constant pounding fear that I was going to have to stand up in front of the class and make an *** out of my self, that I was a zombie after 5:30 pm. I very nearly got into a bad wreck leaving the facility and had trouble concentrating on the most minute things. When I got home, my mind just wouldn't shut up even though it was exhausted. The sleeping pills (lunesta) were working the first two nights but on the third night it did not. I tried taking melatonin, friggin NyQuil, meditation, everything I could think of. I could not get to sleep. So, I stayed up ALL night. I don't do very well when I don't sleep. I guess its because my mind need the rest in order to the 8 hours of beating me down its got to do the next day. So, I call in sick, called my psychiatrist to send a prescription of ambien in, thinking surely I will be able to sleep tonight. Nope. I didn't sleep at all. Now, with the way my body reacts to no sleep I knew continuing this job would be an impossibility. I went to sleep on Wednesday night fully expecting to sleep well and get up in the morning and go to work, as I was exhausted, but no dice. Anyway, I have gotten all I can get out of therapy that I know what to do and where to look if I need to rationalize my thoughts, do some exposure, etc. Which is great. I really have taken strides towards understanding that any negative irrational thinking can be disputed and disarmed, etc. But, the problem remains. I got to sleep. I am going to be getting a new job in the very near future and the only way I am going to work is if I can pull a 7-8 hour sleep consistently. That's just the way I am wired. Ambien works when I am not under a particular amount of stress but it won't sometimes when I am. I need something else. Does anyone have any suggestions about medications or anything other than Ambien, Lunesta, Rozerum (all I have tried), Klonopin (I take 2 mg before bed)? The thing that had worked the best for me is ambien along with benzotropine (sic?) which is a muscle relaxer. I need 10mg of that coupled with the ambien to guarantee sleep. I wonder if any doctors would be willing to prescribe that for me. I hate taking these damn pills but I feel I am trapped and to be honest, I don't care as long as I can be assured that I will be able to sleep. Please help me sleep. Thank you.