I haven't been here in a while and it was because everything was going pretty well. I met my first boyfriend last year. Last week we broke up. We were only together for a few months but...he changed my life. He told me he loved me, something nobody else ever does, He brought me to meet his friends and for once, I felt normal. Now it's back to me being alone and I'm not handling it well at all. I've cried every night since. I'm just so terrified of being alone for the rest of my life. That there are no other guys like him, he seemed so perfect and I felt like I imagine everyone else feels...but now I feel more down than I've ever felt....