When you get sick of trying to improve and forcing yourself all the time out of your comfort zone, which you probably will, make sure you don't take too long off. Cause Crap im rusty now. I felt exhausted from forcing myself to be social, so I took a break hoping my motivation would come back again. That never happened and fear has come back. One thing I have really learned is that you can't suddenly become motivated. You have to keep working to build it up and make sure your thoughts stay positive so you do not get dragged down. Sometimes there are thoughts, only the feeling of your mind being dissarrayed. If you think hard enough, you can find what you want and what is bothering you and resolve it. Oh well setbacks happens, we got to keep pushing Saers.