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I think molestation caused my SA

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It was my uncle, it was repeated, and i was around 8 or 9 or so.

I think that the shame I have felt growing up, and the fact that my parents kept silent about the whole thing even though they knew, reinforcing a feeling of shame and silence, may not have helped. I wasn't able to be proud of who I was, and the anxiety issues I have are closely related to feeling powerless and not able to be who I am. I always felt somehow different from my peers but could never put my finger on it. Just recently I am beginning to realize how deeply the molestation really did affect me, and it doesn't seem a far stretch to say my problems relating to people could have to do with the damage done to my psyche during my formative years. I have gone through a lot of weird mental crap lately as I began to realize these things...

But on the upside, my anxiety has been getting a lot better, at least so far as I have a lot more courage now and I can deal with people easier. On the downside my old problems have been replaced with other problems, and I often have been feeling like I am losing my mind. But it's not as bad as feeling like I am living a half-life due to anxiety, which was how I always felt. Anyway, just thought I would share.
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Norske said:
I think people found beyond all doubt to be guilty of child molestation should be castrated to prevent it from happening again.
...or killed.

I was molested as a child by two immediate family members and i'm still trying to deal with the effects now. The people who molested me are sane, well adjusted guys who grew up in a stable, loving household and they were not mistreated while growing up except for the occasional spanking. There is no other explaination other than selfish motivations and porn, both of which they were (and still are) consumers of. It's true that some molesters have a psychological problem that leads them to do stuff like this, but there are a lot of truly evil men and women who know exactly what they are doing and play up the psychologically sick card when caught.

I have no doubt in my mind that being repeatedly molested and raped as a child has directly or indirectly resulted in my social anxiety, (and my occasional misanthropy). Sorry to rant on, but in the case of evil self-serving child molesters, i support the death penalty, even though i know that will never happen where i live because it's considered unliberal and i'm living in Canada.
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