Hey so this is the first time i join one of these kind of groups, i just really need to share my story somewhere because it's driving me nuts to keep it all inside. Here's the thing: i don't suffer from social anxiety however i do suffer from anxiety disorders like generalized anxiety disorder and ocd. Right now what i want to talk about isn't related to my anxiety disorders. It's about my brother who has been abusing me physically (not sexually) and emotionally for years. Im a girl and he's twice my size.Growing up i thought it would stop when i would be older. I am now 18 years old, he's 22 and it's still happens. He still beats me and insults me. I feel so helpless. My parents or my other family members don't do anything to stop him. I can't call the cops because im scared that my brother will kill me if the cops come and leave after. Today my parents were out for the day. I didn't speak to my brother all day. He's lazy and does nothing in the house. My mom had to hide his ipad because he was not studying and failing all of his classes. He asked me to find it and i said i didn't know where it was and joked that if he gave me 2$ i could find it (he's completly broke so i knew he didn't even have 2$ ). I caught him trying to steal money from my wallet and got in an argument. It escalated quickly because he wouldn't leave my room and give me back my money. When i raised my voice he got angry and grabbed me by the hair and started punching me everywhere till i was on the floor. When i started screaming he choked me, he tried to kill me, my neck still hurts. He put his *** on my face (he hasn't showered in 5 days). I couldn't breath.When my uncle finally came in, he did nothing and blamed me for "provoking him". So i decided it was time to call the cops. He heard me take the phone and came back in my room to beat me again, banging my head against my bedpost. He took the phone away and i went nuts. I screamed at the top of my lungs and started crying , i feel so angry and powerless. I went crazy and started kicking the walls and threw a tantrum because i couldn't keep that anger inside anymore. Now im blamed for being crazy after being assaulted and abused for an hour. I don't know what to do anymore. Nobody is taking my situation seriously. I don't have any other place to go to . As i am writing this, my neck is sore and painful. I can't live like this anymore, he started beating me when i was 6 and i feel like one day it will go too far and i'll end up dead. He jokes after we fight and says that i exaggarate. He says i'm nothing without him because he's my older brother and i need guidance. He is very manipulative. I have no friends to talk to and he uses that against me as well.