I just recently turned 18 (yes I know i'm "young") and I've suffered from multiple forms of anxiety since I was a little child. What also came along with this was depression, and it has hit really hard tonight and I have no clue why. I feel like a part of me is dead/gone. I don't know any other way to explain it. I definitely don't feel suicidal, but I really wouldn't mind if someone killed me or I just randomly died. I literally have nothing besides my mother in my life, and I love her with all my heart but I need something more you know? I don't know what to do anymore. I've been from psychiatrist to psychiatrist, from medicine to medicine. I hate typing/talking about this type of stuff because it sounds like I'm some ungrateful brat, but it's the complete opposite of that. I'm beyond thankful for everything and everyone I have in my life, I'm just not happy with myself mentally.