Time doesn't mean much when you're someone like me..."At this point consider me "damaged goods"
Lol you're 16 brah.
There are people way older than you still in this mess. You have SO MUCH time to sort this out and live a happy life where you're able to be function well in society.
Stop saying I can't and start saying I will. Your post suggests that going outside and trying is not an improvement, just because you didn't do everything else you wanted to do.I literally CAN'T live my own life, I CAN'T be the person I want to be, I CAN'T have friends.
Well, it looks like you accomplished something! You're complaining about everything at the end of the rainbow and have forgotten the step you just took!I went outside today for a change
Quoted for my side in this. I totally "feel your pain" Skyla.It's tough. If you're not planning on meeting someone or talking to people when you go out, chances are you won't because unless you have a really attractive personality or really good looks, people aren't going to just want to talk to you for no reason. So they don't even notice you, or what you're going through. All they see is a 16 year old kid, they can't see the loneliness or the pain. I can totally relate to what you're saying.
I'm similar in this aswell, but I made a decision a different way, a lot more internalizing (and a lot more on my own) than Hopeful. I would have told my parents and all that, but I guess I was too scared (and too proud I guess also) to try to do it:I'd given up too when I was your age (a couple years ago). I pretty much accepted that I was gonna live a crappy life, and decided that I was gonna live for myself and my family and hope for the best. So I told my parents about my anxiety (I'd hit rock bottom at that point emotionally and spiritually, I just hated my life), and they got me this awesome psychotherapist who specialized in teenagers. Honestly, he was the turning point for me. He was not only a great therapist, but he was a good human being, and believe it or not, like you I hadn't met many of them in real life outside my family.
Yeah, pretty much this too.I can't tell you that there are great people out there waiting to embrace you because I don't know honestly. I've met some nice people but I haven't met anyone who seems to want to be close friends with me so I'm still looking for those people :stu. But all I can say is keep hope alive, you seem like a good guy, once you start gaining control over your anxiety I'm sure people won't mind befriending you