For the last two years I have become a very unhappy and I know I have to do something with my life. I'm married and love my husband and we have a good relationship but he tends to be very controlling. I have always had a self conscience way about me and tend to have a low opinion of myself so I liked it in the first few years of are marriage and I loved being a stay at home mother. I didn't realize that not getting out in the work force for so many years would handicap me so bad. I became a recluse and slowly had no social life of my own. About 10 years ago I sought help with consoling which helped a lot. I also took meds which worked for me. I slowly came out of my shell. I found a job and came out of my shell. Well three years ago I lost my job and things just seemed to fall apart, now I'm back to being a recluse and losing my confidence in myself. The doctor I saw diagnosed my symptoms as "Social Anxiety". I took medication for 10 years and slowly weaned off it with a doctors' help I just don't want to be on medicine because of the side effects. I keep telling everyone I need to get another job or volunteer somewhere to have something to do but I'm so scared and keep putting it off. Well there's more to say but I'm going to leave it here for now I hope to be able to connect with some people and get some advice I posted along time ago on a similar site and I enjoyed getting some feed back and reading other post to get a perspective in my life.