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I've never really had any friends. I was bullied for being ugly and quiet when I was a kid, which made me depressed. I never had anyone that I hung out with, I just walked around by myself. In class I would never chat with anyone, just sit doing the work quietly. I'd never get invited to birthday parties, to see a movie, to hang out, nothing. It feels like my childhood is missing.

When I arrived at university last year at age 19 I felt it was a chance to start afresh. But it's horrific. Everyone I have met is 3x more experienced than me in everything, from socialising to relationships. I've never even tried to get a friend who is a girl, let alone get a girlfriend. I've never had the chance because no one has ever gotten to know me.

At university everyone was nice to me at first. I tried to be nice back. I am severely socially awkward though, due to lack of experience. Most of the time people my age talk about things that I have no clue about. I can't relate to anyone. I'm living with 5 other guys in my house, and none of them ever speak to me. It's like reliving my childhood all over again.

I've made an effort to talk to people, surprisingly I'm not shy but quite confident, it's just I don't know how to behave. I've striked up conversations with strangers around the university, and most of the time they look at me funny, or there's an awkward silence I always try and fill. I just can't socialise.

And everyone I know is in a relationship too. It's second nature to them, they've been hanging out with girls since they were about 15. I've never even had a proper conversation with one, I try but they avoid me. It's like I'm destined to be a loner forever.

It doesn't help that my brother is going out with his friends every other day. He's already been to numerous parties. My parents are getting worried about me, they think something is wrong with me socially. I've heard them talking about it on the phone with my other relatives, which is horrible.

I might just give up.
 

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Practice is key, keep trying despite the pain, push through it. It's uncomfortable, perhaps it always will be yet the payout can be so great, that it'll make the awkwardness and rejections totally worth it and seem like nothing when you look back.

Yeah I sometimes chat people up endlessly or drift off and run out of things to say so it really just depends on the mood of yourself and them. So don't force yourself to chat if you don't feel like it, but when you have the urge to say something---SAY IT, even if it's stupid, that's your opinion, not theirs, STOP OVERTHINKING and speak your piece... Come on, you possess thoughts of your own, you have your own voice and shape the lives of those around you whether you want to or not, so just keep practicing, don't give up, that's moving backwards, not forward. Eventually, it'll come to a point in which you feel as if people bore you more than you bore them, now when this happens, it's imperative to realize that you've probably placed them on the defensive and they're just inanely speaking about whatever the hell it is on their mind. This will go back and forth repeatedly until you both can eventually grow comfortable with one another and chatting nonstop is not a necessity but you both can have inside jokes or talk with no nervousness whatsoever. So again, practice is key, warm up to people. I think the best way to form friendships with people is discussing topics you both can relate to. Be it interests, hobbies, life situations, experience, annoying teachers, bosses, parents, siblings, etc. Be honest with them, express you're bored and wish there was something fun to do, perhaps someone will suggest something and bring you along, yet you won't know for sure unless you take that initial leap of faith.

The outgoing live can often be overrated and quite costly so do this slowly in moderation and decide what it is you truly want to do in life, because the purpose of your life, should be to have fun, while at the same time making those you care about feel safe and happy with you. That's about it really...
 
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