Thank god I found this on SEARCH. I think I'm just really backed up too. Or else my appendix will burst and I'll DIE. I'm going for a walk to work it out.I recently learned that hyphochondria is a common thing among people with OCD. I found a site that describes what hypochondria is pretty well:
I'm totally exhausted, and so is everyone around me. Day after day they deal with my physical complaints. This month has been especially bad. It's just been one thing leading to another, so I'm going to just list them vaguely to keep this post from going on forever..
-Had pressure over my bladder, was convinced I had cancer because of my irregular cycle. Had blood tests, pelvic exams, and some unpleasent ultrasounds done.. They found absolutely nothing, except a low thyroid. Got put on synthroid.
- A month later the pressure came back, with pain. I was convinced I had appendicitis, so I went back to the doctor. Found out I had a bladder infection which took two different medications to get rid of.
- Lots of adominal pressure and pain sent me to the ER because I was convinced I either had appendicitis, or some kind of gallbladder problem. After X-rays were done I found out I was extremely..uh..backed up. Doctor gave me something, and after a week or so it got better..
- about a week later I had more pain in my lower abdomen, with severe burning cramps. Went back to ER, had a contrast dye ct scan done, and was told there was nothing wrong. The next day I finally got my ..well, you know.. but it was the worst one of my life. Severe cramping.. heavy flow..
- Cycle over.. but I still have pressure over my bladder, and now I've developed pain in my larynx. It's the same sensation as being "choked up".. you know..the way your throat feels when you're trying not to cry...but it's constant. Over the last day I've been able to keep it down to a minimum with tylenol, and klonopin.
My main fear lately has been getting cancer.. ovarian, uterine, peritoneal.. In the past it's been about heart attacks, aneurisms, brain tumors, mouth tumors.. For a while it was a joke around here.. my sister would say "I've got a headache, it must be cancer".. and for the most part it is kinda funny..but I don't think they understand how serious this is to me. I absolutely believe I have something and am going to die. I keep having symptoms I don't understand.. and I'm constantly checking my symptoms online (bad bad thing to do), or seeking reassurance from friends and family. I'm driving my family nuts, and I actually had a fight with my mom about it this morning..she even told me that my dad told her the other night that it was good to get out and away from me. I told him I didnt blame him for wanting to get away from me, and that I hated myself and the way I am.. I feel like a bad person because of what I put people through.. I just thought that maybe, maybe if someone out there had some of the same fears..the same symptoms... maybe even some seggestions on how to deal with or get over things.. I could get through this and relax a little.. I'm sorry this was so long.. lol..