The Tragic Princess
I'm wondering how in the best descriptive terms would you describe how your SA affects you physically, mentally, emotionally...etc. For me, I feel like I have needles poking into every part of my body often which is a stressed type feeling, my chest always hurts in a more of emotional type manner, sometimes I feel the sensation that I need to throw up but I rarely get sick, my shoulders feel like I'm carrying weights all the time...I feel like I could buckle and cry at any minute due to the worry and that's just in non-social situations. When in social situations, it's like everything just fades away and I become obsessivly alert and aware of every tiny action that goes on...and I feel more real if that makes any sense. I feel intense fear and my mind won't think on anything besides anxious thoughts unless I catch them and force other "better" thoughts into my head. It tends to peek when I'm either with more than one person or when I ask for job applications....