What a stupid bloody question. Come across it for years though. So for some reason, i don't know maybe progression in therapy? i have revisited this idea. To this point it has never meant much, just a thing, anyway i started appologising to myself when those haunting memories arose and i think it's making a difference. Sometimes those memories would be triggered in some way during a day or i would dream about them and wake up thinking about it and kicking myself for it, aka wanting to smash my head through a wall. Let me share, i once ended up with my best friends girlfriend. That was at least 15 years ago and it still haunts me today. When i say "ended up with", that's how little of a clue i had to the situation that unfolded. So i've said, i'm sorry how i stole your girlfriend, i didn't realise what or how things were happening. I appologise out loud and i think it's making a difference. BTW I have considered appologising for real time and time again but so long had passed and i can't even find them on the net. The other thing is this is my nightmare, those people won't even remember me now, but i digress, it's not about them, it's about us.