i do not have s.a.d. but i seem to never be in the proverbial "right place and right time" and there, say the exactly right words with the exactly right inflection and facial expression, to meet "friends". i am coming to this forum because here i figure i wont be immediately ostracized as being an outsider and a "complainer". i was diagnosed with anxiety and depression 6 years ago but am not now taking any meds or "talking with someone", because i had a bad experience with being psych abused back then, and i just keep silent about my issues nowadays because i cant afford medical bills and i dont want to be told i am sick by some creep who is much less sane than myself and just happens to be an authority figure...anyway, i hope i am not wasting more time here, because i am already a seasoned professional at that (lol), and i am just a man who wants to reach out and make friends but all i see everywhere are stone-cold people who are emotionally dead inside. :um it seems like everywhere i turn i feel ever more isolated but i dont believe there is anything wrong with me that isnt "wrong" with almost all persons....here i go sticking my foot in my mouth right at the get-go, right? well, i dont care!