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Hi, my names brendan and I have just found this site and thought I would make an account.
This is just me telling you my story. :blank

Umm first off I'd like to mention that I don't know for sure that I have social anxiety. This is I guess a self diagnosis, so could just be an exaggeration of my problem but I still think I could have it.

Basically I have always been a shy guy. Well as a kid it wasn't so bad, but more and more as life has gone on and as I have gotten older this problem has gotten worse. Pretty much I get extremely nervous when it comes to socialising with anyone just about. Even with some people that I have known for years. Well it's not as bad with them as to others but still.

I really find it hard to grow close relationships with people, I can usually make friends kinda (I can't start the conversation or friendship), well when I think about it, friends I have either I met when I was under 10 or was introduced to them by the people I met when i was under 10. Although I call these people my friends, we are not very close. I can't hold a conversation with these people for very long and this has been just getting worse.

I get this horrible feeling when I talk to people, like I have nothing to say. Generally me in a conversation its the other person talking and me just agreeing pretty much. I never have anything interesting to talk about because I never go out. I can't meet knew people, I get really nervous and well yeah I just can't.

Although this seems like im a very lonely guy, but I enjoy being by myself. I'd actually prefer staying home, listening to music and being on the computer than going to a party or some other social event. However times like this is where the lonelyness kicks in.

Tomorrow is my 18th birthday, and I have told almost nobody. I hate my birthday, it's the one day of the year I truely feel like nobody cares about me. My "friends" don't really know me, I get to nervous to ask them to do anything on my birthday. I alwyas get the feeling that they dont care about me so why would they want to spend my birthday with me. So once again I will be spending my birthday alone, and the night with my family. My birthday, the loneliest day of the year.... :um

Well apart from them reasons, I have a few more that makes me believe I have SA. I have known about social anxiety for about a year or two now and always thought it seemed a lot like me. I fit just about every symptom of it besides the blushing.. so i thought. The other night I got the urge to go on webcam too talk to a friend. This was horrible, middle of winter. Was freezing and I was absolutely sweating. Dripping wet and it got worse. When I looked at my picture I saw that I was blushing. I checked in a mirror and I was right. I have never noticed this before. Noones ever said anything bout it before to me. People have always been able to tell I get nervous when I talk to them but never knew I blushed.

Another problem I have is phones, generally when I hear the phone ring I freeze up and 9/10 I will let it ring out so I don't have to speak to them.

I've become a very good liar over the past few years, making up reasons not to go out or too partys. And now people have just stopped asking. I feel like people must hate me for it, but I just can never go.. I just cant bring myself too.

I've only ever had one girlfriend in my life, and notbhing really happened there because I was so nervous, I could never talk to her unless we were alone and well yeah... don't want to get into that.

Also i can't look at peoples eyes. Im always looking at there lips, I try and i just look away quickly. I also cant understand ppl when theyre talking. I find myself wondering what to say next too much and miss what theyre actually saying which then makes me even more nervous.

There is a lot more reasons to why I think I have SA but this is getting pretty freaken huge, so I will end it here.

It's just a "little" intro on myself and how I think I have social anxiety.
 

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You're definitely not alone. I have the exact same problem where I can't think of anything to say. Usually if someone approaches me, I just end up mumbling some stuff, and they walk off after a little bit :/

Welcome, though.
 

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Hey Brendan welcome. :)
 

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I understand all of what you're going through, and can sympathise with you. I know how lonely it is to celebrate your birthday alone or just with family - i've never celebrated a birthday with friends. I also understand about conversations - whenever I do talk to anyone it is always them doing most of the talking, I can never think of anything interesting to say. I have problems with phones as well, whenever I hear a phone I start to panick. I never answer the phone at home and hate it when I do have to use it.

Happy Birthday for tomorrow Brendan :hb I hope you do have a great birthday and do find someone to spend it with. :)
 

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Hey Brendan.
Yes reading your post it does sound like you have social anxiety.
Welcome to the forum fellow Aussie.
You will find similair people and good topics to chat about here !
See you around the boards !
 

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Hi Brendan :)
I can relate to everything in your post and I hope you had a lovely birthday :) I'm knew here myself so it's nice to be able to relate to someone so much right away.
 

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Welcome, Bravo91! :)
 
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