I'm 22 and I'm in college. I have been struggling with depression and low self esteem since the last 5 years. I have been subjected to years of abuse by my mom, and I cut her off completely only a little while ago. My dad has always been unsupportive and unavailable and I don't have much of a relationship with him. Being an only child, I have come to love loneliness to the point of not wanting to wake up and take part in life each day. I have an amazing boyfriend, and we've been together for almost 8 years and he's the only one I really talk to. I'm the shy, insecure, loner girl in my class. I'm very plain looking and I don't like to wear bright colors or makeup. People often make rude remarks about my appearance. I feel very vulnerable whenever I am in a social situation.