i have been avoiding joining this forum because i'm not sure i belong here. but everytime i do a google search about myself this forum comes up. i dont know if i have social anxiety or self esteem so low that i can't function socially? i keep saying to myself if i looked how i wanted to look people would like me and i would go far in life... is that social anxiety? or something else.. i actually like being social and would love to be social.. but i'm pretty much a social reject..people just dont like me.. and i dont know why .. i just want to feel normal.. i just want to be normal and happy like everyone else.