hello everyone. I'm John from Philippines. I don't know if I have Social Anxiety disorder. I always feel that I'm not from this world. I feel like I'm not normal to everyone. I always hide at people because they are cruel to me. Every people hates me because of how I look like(I'm not that ugly). whenever I walk the streets people are staring at me(I don't wear a clown suit!) and sometimes and always girls look at me like EEEEWWW yuck! I can read that from their eye and movements. I am always alone with my video game console. whenever I play a game, in the game I am playing, I feel like I'm inside the game in another world full of happiness, joy, intense action, and sometimes love. I don't look at peoples eyes whenever I walk down the street because their stares makes my wanna kill them. I feel like want to kill people I cross in malls, streets etc. specially the people with nice god given faces, sweet couples, happy friends having fun and etc. I don't have friends even if I want to make friends with them. Is that because I act like weird? I always hide in my room and play my game consoles I feel like in another world where I am the best. video games and my mother and my aquarium fishes is the reason why I'm still alive and breathing. no video game, no mother, no fishes then I'm dead. those are very Important to me. I don't care If other peoples die as long that 3 remains I'm happy. I don't know if I will grow old and die with this problem. please help me.