Hi all, I've been suffering social anxiety ever since I was a child. I'm taking medication and I was going to cognitive behavioral therapy but quit because I moved house - I'm starting it again soon. I have a little boy who's 5 and im unemployed. I have been trying so hard to get a job because I feel like a failure - that I can't even support my son properly. I can never afford to buy him anything nice and I feel guilty everyday. I apply for jobs, get to the interview stage and then just mess up because I'm such a nervous wreck at the interview. I always forget everything I wanted to say because I'm so nervous. When my son was a baby, I worked part time in a bar but was always a nervous wreck and nearly got sacked because of it - I worked there for a year, I don't know how! I have friends but most of them treat me like crap and take advantage. I feel like I'm a failure. I just want a job and decent friends.