I'm Jeanne, 47 years old from Tennessee. I've had social anxiety my whole life, but it seems to be getting worse. A lot of it seems to stem from low self esteem. By joining this site, I hope to gain some new understanding of myself and how to deal with my struggles. I need people who understand me and how I feel. I am lonely, because I can't make and maintain close friendships. Several lost friendships over the last several years have made me become more anxious and wonder if I am delusional to even have thought those people were my friends in the first place. I am afraid to trust people, so I am often detached.