Hi. I am Melany. I am 24 and recently moved from New Jersey to the midwest with my fiancee.
I have suffered from what I can only assume is social anxiety for many years. I was made fun of in school, tortured almost because of my weight. Subsequently, I ate more and more and developed bulimia when I was 20. I had agoraphobia for a year and refused to leave my house without someone with me or in the daylight.
I've been on medications, but it seems like the less I have my fear the more I have depression. I've had self-injury since I was eight and was raped at 16. I guess all of these experiences could have led to my current situation.
I am unemployed, since I can hardly go on an interview without my brain telling me that every person is staring at me, plotting against me, wanting to hurt me. I can't meet new people. Without employment I have no insurance, and no way to afford therapy.
I feel lost, I feel afraid...ashamed, lonely.
I should be fun on the board.
Heh :/
~Melany
I have suffered from what I can only assume is social anxiety for many years. I was made fun of in school, tortured almost because of my weight. Subsequently, I ate more and more and developed bulimia when I was 20. I had agoraphobia for a year and refused to leave my house without someone with me or in the daylight.
I've been on medications, but it seems like the less I have my fear the more I have depression. I've had self-injury since I was eight and was raped at 16. I guess all of these experiences could have led to my current situation.
I am unemployed, since I can hardly go on an interview without my brain telling me that every person is staring at me, plotting against me, wanting to hurt me. I can't meet new people. Without employment I have no insurance, and no way to afford therapy.
I feel lost, I feel afraid...ashamed, lonely.
I should be fun on the board.
Heh :/
~Melany
You sure sound like you've had a rough time; I hope things get better for you.
