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Hi, I found this forum a while ago and i just didn't have it in me to join, well now i do.
I am too different, and it's not right, it's not fair i have to be like this. My whole life i have to make friends by lying, being someone completely different, someone who I'm not. And i don't like it!, but theirs no one like me, i am a deep thinker, i think too deep. All i do with the rest of my life is pretend and imagine I'm someone who I'm not. And it pains me that reality catches up with me, i play too much games and watch too many movies, because i like to visualize and imagine myself in those scenarios. Family have given up on me, I'm too scared to take on the real world such as get a job, I'm terrified what people think about me. I'm on a college IT course, and i hate it, I'm only doing it to shut people up so they don't think I'm just lazing around all day. I have a huge passion in writing, I'm fascinated with imagination and the fact we all grasp creation in our own minds, because it's such a powerful tool.
I've also written a lot of stories and ideas, and when i visualize it, it's like magic, like my old pathetic life doesn't even exist, it gets me away from the horrible reality and the boring dull life i have. I would love to be a writer but I'm just to scared to go on with it, as in doing it for a living. It's scary to think that i might get turned down because it's not good enough, and that would be the death of me, because it's the only meaning i have to my life, the only thing which could be a potential destiny if that.
I joined this forum seeking not only help but friends and other people who are similar at least and have similar issues.
I am too different, and it's not right, it's not fair i have to be like this. My whole life i have to make friends by lying, being someone completely different, someone who I'm not. And i don't like it!, but theirs no one like me, i am a deep thinker, i think too deep. All i do with the rest of my life is pretend and imagine I'm someone who I'm not. And it pains me that reality catches up with me, i play too much games and watch too many movies, because i like to visualize and imagine myself in those scenarios. Family have given up on me, I'm too scared to take on the real world such as get a job, I'm terrified what people think about me. I'm on a college IT course, and i hate it, I'm only doing it to shut people up so they don't think I'm just lazing around all day. I have a huge passion in writing, I'm fascinated with imagination and the fact we all grasp creation in our own minds, because it's such a powerful tool.
I've also written a lot of stories and ideas, and when i visualize it, it's like magic, like my old pathetic life doesn't even exist, it gets me away from the horrible reality and the boring dull life i have. I would love to be a writer but I'm just to scared to go on with it, as in doing it for a living. It's scary to think that i might get turned down because it's not good enough, and that would be the death of me, because it's the only meaning i have to my life, the only thing which could be a potential destiny if that.
I joined this forum seeking not only help but friends and other people who are similar at least and have similar issues.