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Literally just googled "anxiety forums" this one is spot on I think!

I wouldn't consider myself to be someone who has many nervous breakdowns in public. And I can seem confident around people who are familiar to me. But I would like to start by saying a bit about myself, although I won't go into as much detail as I would like to right at this moment, because I try to never put my personal life on the line to be intruded on via the internet.


I'm a 19 year old Male, a virgin, sometimes focussed, more often a day dreamer and music enthusiast.

I grew up around a confident older brother who has always seemed to have it all really - good looking, mature, confident, good at sports, good with women. I have always aspired to be like him in some way or other, and still do to be honest. Be it my clothing, attitude, grammar, hand gestures etc you get the picture.

At primary school I was popular with girls, I enjoyed the attention and most likely even thought girls who weren't attracted to me were. Then came secondary school and very few girls were attracted to me at first, which surprised me really.

By the end of my first year of secondary school however I was chatting and flirting with girls again all was good. I literally got into like 1 relationship in the whole of my time in school even though I'm sure there could have been many more.

But that was just me, I don't think "yeah I like her this will be great" instead I end up thinking about what everyone else will think and for that reason don't pursue relationships and the girls move on, forget about me, get interested in other guys and I was just left there looking about silly really.

There was a time again late in my year before last of school where lots of girls became interested in me all at once. I got confident (well Im one of those people who looks confident with girls until they talk to me and then Im usually looking for the best way to end the conversation. My posture usually goes bad, I look around to see who's watching instead of looking at them - which I know by NOW women do not like.)

Anyway because of my cocky actions during this period, some of the females who I had been socialising with before all the other interest arouse, started hating on me if you want to put it that way. They were really *****y towards me really, trying to turn people against me, saying how I'd changed and how I thought I was "too good for them" or whatever. I think they knew deep down things like that would get to me, girls are like that right?

Anyway it annoyed me and I felt bad - my way of dealing with those things is to completely shut off communications with those people, in the hope that maybe they will miss me and wish they hadn't f**cked with me, which in turn makes me twice as sad.

I mention that time in my life because it really shot my ego because I was finally gaining confidence with women and it reached such a high peak that it came all the way back down to its lowest point.

I had a girlfriend from my first year of college and it lasted about a month or two although I always tell women longer. We had been freinds for years and could talk about anything, but I messed it up even though I try and blame her. I was needy, pushy and wanted to have sex with her - she's experienced and I'm a virgin so for some reason I seemed to think that she wouldn't mind helping me lose my virginity. 2 Years later Im still a virgin so that worked out great..lol. Eventually she became cold with me, didn't really want to see me although wouldn't say why. I flipped out over text, sending her loads of pretty crazy messages about how "she's taking me for a fool" and of course she replied but only because I had offended her. It got ugly and then we finished on a calmer note and then about 2 weeks later I tried to get her back by sending her some gift! (IDIOT).

So nowadays I'm in my 3rd and final year of my 3 year btec course, still a virgin, don't make that much effort to talk to girls, Im comfortable with my male friends - always have been really. I'm a virgin and just think I'll be a virgin and lonely kid for ever sometimes and even me writing this now I;m thinking "man what girl would want to go out with such a unconfident wierd guy"

So thats all I'm going to say for now I know I have just wrote alot but I could go on a lot longer, I can't talk about these things to anyone so I vent on this forum, I can't let people know Im unconfident deep down.

Feel free to ask anymore questions and all your views or help would be greatly appreciated..I'm sick of feeling down and wearing a frown in public.

Thankyou.
 

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Welcome derobe!

Feels good to let some of the stuff out, doesn't it?
I'm sure you'll find a lot interesting topics here, especially concerning virginity and dating.
 

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welcome to the forum, and thanks for sharing your story!
 

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Welcome m8.
 

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Hey derobe welcome. :hyper
 

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Welcome, Derobe! :)
 
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