and not to sound sadistic, but i sincerely know for a fact that someday, after shes done with all the partying, shes at the very least going to get a case of the "what ifs" and "did i make a mistake." and even as immature as that may sound, lol, it kinda makes me feel better.
:yes I know the feeling lol. I don't really feel bad about it though because I tried my hardest to become a better person and make her proud to have me again, but that's when I realized that I wasn't the only one who screwed up, but I was
the only one who admitted it and tried to fix it instead of giving up so easily. I think that's all it is when somebody breaks up with you after a serious relationship - they just gave up because they couldn't handle the stress. They'll come up with all sorts of excuses to why they are doing it, but the fact remains that those things never used to bother them that much until they gave up on the relationship.
And yes, you will definitely get over it eventually. Faster if you start taking care of yourself and move on though. And I feel for you. One thing you have to remember is that just because they didn't want you, doesn't mean that the rest of the world doesn't. It just feels that way because you made them the center of your world for so long, but that goes away.