No,I'm not happy and growing less so alllllll the time. At this point I only seek to find a contentment of sorts with life,I've given up on happy. I have some family,a sweet dog,various diversions. I often wonder if a feeling of happiness draining away and just existing is something most people (non SA) have to deal with. At a certain point most of the big moments of life are past and life becomes more blah and grey for most?? I'm not sure if that's the secret know one lets you in on or if that's a drastically distorted view because of SA and depression??great, are you happy with that?what do you do to keep yourself 'entertained'?
4 is a neat number though. Something's gotta give.I kind of feel the same way. I just can't imagine living through the cycle of suffering for four more years.