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Discussion Starter · #1 ·
I Know You
I know you
you were too short
you had bad skin
you couldn't talk to them very well
words didn't seem to work
they lied when they came out of your mouth
you tried so hard to understand them
you wanted to be part of what was happening
you saw them having fun
and it seemed like such a mystery
almost magic
made you think that there was something wrong with you
you'd look in the mirror trying to find it
you thought that you were ugly
and that everyone was looking at you
so you learned to be invisible
to look down
to avoid conversation
the hours
ah the weekend nights, alone
where were you
in the basement?
in the attic?
in your room?
working some job?
just to have something to do
just to have a place to put yourself
just to have a way to get away from them
a chance to get away from the ones that made you feel so strange and ill-at-ease inside yourself
did you ever get invited to one of their parties
you sat and wondered if you would go or not
for hours you imagined the scenarios that might transpire
they would laugh at you
if you would know what to do
if you would have the right things on
if they would notice that you came from a different planet
did you get all brave in your thoughts
like you were going to be able to go in there and deal with it
and have a great time
did you think that you might be "the life of the party"
that all these people were gonna talk to you
and you would find out that you were wrong
that you had a lot of friends
and you weren't so strange after all?
did you end up going
did they mess with you
did they single you out
did you find out that you were invited
because they thought you were so weird
yeah, I think I know you
you spent a lot of time full of hate
a hate that was pure as sunshine
a hate that saw for miles
a hate that kept you up at night
a hate that filled your every waking moment
a hate that carried you for a long time
yes I think I know you
you couldn't figure out what they saw and the way they lived
home was not home
your room was home
a corner was home
the place they weren't- that was home
I know you
you're sensitive
and you hide it, because you fear getting stepped on one more time
it seems that when you show a part of yourself that is the least bit vulnerable
someone takes advantage of you
one of them steps on you
they mistake kindness for weakness
but you know the difference
you've been the brunt of their weakness for years
and strength is something you know a bit about
because you had to be strong to keep yourself alive
you know yourself very well now
and you don't trust people
you know them too well
you try to find that "special person"
someone you can be with
someone you can touch
someone you can talk to
someone you won't feel so strange around
and you found that they don't really exist
you feel closer to people on movie screens
yeah, I think I know you
you spend a lot of time daydreaming
and people have made comment to that effect
telling you that you're "self-involved" and "self-centered"
but they don't know, do they
about the long nightshifts alone
about the years of keeping yourself company
all the nights you wrapped your arms around yourself
so you could imagine someone holding you
the hours of indecision
the intense depression
the blinding hate
the rage that made you stagger
the devastation of rejection
maybe they do know
but if they do
they sure do a good job of hiding it
it astounds you how they can be so smooth
how they seem to pass through life as if life itself was some divine gift
and it infuriates you to watch yourself with your apparent skill,
and finding every way possible to screw it up
for you, life is a long trip
terrifying and wonderful
birds sing to you at night
the rain and the sun
the changing seasons
are true friends
solitude is a hard won ally
faithful and patient
yeah, I think I know you

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I could relate to every line written in that poem, almost cried the first time I read it.

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Discussion Starter · #6 ·
almost cried the first time I read it
tell me about it, very powerful poem. I hate poems but this one made me see what power a poem can really have.

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i could completely relate to that whole thing...actually i think it goes further than just relating...anyway, hate to sound like a girl, but that brought tears to my eyes...i feel like somebody went into my soul and expressed what i cant (or havent)

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for the past few months i've kept a copy of this on my computer to read every so often. It hits so close to home that it is scary. I think it comes from a book he wrote...does anyone happen to have it? I bet it is interesting considering this poem!

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I listened to that poem for the first time in 2000, I discovered it on napster. It's actually more intense when you hear him saying it with music in the background (I think NIN did the music in the background). That poem really hit me deep when I was in the worst depression of my life.

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The one I listened to had music in the background. I found it on napster. maybe it's just the result of some person editing the one without music. I found it on a file sharing program, maybe its still circulating. THe file name made it sound as if trent reznor did the music for it. I'm not sure if its official or not.

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Bump :) for this great piece of work.

Oh, I found the version with music on kazaa. It is marked as NiN so perhaps that is who added the background music. It's even more powerful than text when you listen to it.

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ehh..sorry to be the one bumping this back to the front page again. I'm not doing it jsut to bump it, though. I had reinstalled windows a month ago and lost this poem and the musical version. I recently just started listening to it again and it hasn't lost any of its power on me. What an amazing piece of art. I figured some newer members that had not seen this before may enjoy it as much as I do.

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Discussion Starter · #14 ·
Still have this poem laying around....some new people might enjoy it.....I showed it to some non SA people and they really liked it! This is one piece of art I don't think I will ever forget reading!
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