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When school ended a few months ago, I made myself agoraphobic. My main thought was it's scary and OMG, I'm scared. Today I went for a bike ride. It took me about 3 hours to fight with myself to go on this bike ride. Many things seemed to get in the way. I couldn't find the bike pump. Yet, I was determined so I continued to look for it. Then I thought that I would have to go for a walk and that actually upset me. Yesterday, my counsellor said use your legs, you have two of them. Damn! She had to be blunt with me. It seemed to not be getting through.
Going for my first bike ride in weeks today was pretty crazy. At first it was really difficult climbing hills on my bicycle. I even had to walk for alot of it. My feet honestly felt like sandbags were strapped to them. Not happy with that feeling. After about 15 minutes it started to get easier. The wind was blowing wildly and rain drops started to pour down. I really didn't care. The fact that I was feeling rain on my face was quite refreshing. I saw cornfields and rivers, black and white cows laying among dandelions. Man, was I happy to be outside. I wish that I could bottle it up what it felt like and remember it. Going for bike rides is pure exhiliration.
To anyone who is stuck, think of what it felt like the last time you did something that felt grand and go do it. You will be so much happier that you did.
Going for my first bike ride in weeks today was pretty crazy. At first it was really difficult climbing hills on my bicycle. I even had to walk for alot of it. My feet honestly felt like sandbags were strapped to them. Not happy with that feeling. After about 15 minutes it started to get easier. The wind was blowing wildly and rain drops started to pour down. I really didn't care. The fact that I was feeling rain on my face was quite refreshing. I saw cornfields and rivers, black and white cows laying among dandelions. Man, was I happy to be outside. I wish that I could bottle it up what it felt like and remember it. Going for bike rides is pure exhiliration.
To anyone who is stuck, think of what it felt like the last time you did something that felt grand and go do it. You will be so much happier that you did.