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and you tell her to give in
to the demons that possess her
and that God never blessed her inside


i am hurt on the inside
i hate on the inside
hate myself
hate the way my mind works
hate because i'm nothing
but i f***ed up girl
in need of guidance
(and heavy medication)

and the hurt wants to leave
to escape
in tears and trembling
in blood
and in words

but the hate getting the in the way
and the voices are always talking
talking of past failure
talking of people i don't deserve to be close to
talking of how i'm meant to be alone

and the voices are always
screaming
screaming
screaming

and the voices make my heart beat fast
and my lungs stop working

so i take short, shallow breaths
that make me dizzy
and hold my chest like i'm dying

and it's like i'm dying every day
like the screaming is killing me
like the hate is killing me

and i want the hurt to stop
but the hate is always getting stronger
stronger every day
and the voices are getting louder
and the screaming is getting faster

and the voices are getting louder
and the screaming is getting faster

in endless rambling circles
of failure
and self loathing

in endless rambling circles
of loneliness
and despair

in endless rambling circles
that make my thoughts confused
and make me feel like
my voice doesn't work

and i reach out towards others
reach out for words
to describe how i'm wrong
but the words don't come
and the screaming gets louder

and i keep f***ing up

and the failures keep growing
and rambling
and hating

and the voices have even more to scream
 
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