I will fail. So why even try? Firstly I'm trying to get my driving license now, but I already know I will fail. I'm a clumsy loser, so I won't pass the driving test. I won't even pass the writting test. For that my parents will hate me for a bit, cause lessons and taking tests costs alot money. But my parents will get off that hate a little later, but then I will do bad at my high school exams, cause I'm too ****ed up and have not motivation to do them as good as I want. So my parents will really hate me by then and will think I just don't have a care in a world and failing everything on purpose. So they will be mad angry on me and won't give me any money and I won't go to any universitie or college. By then I will need to get off my parents flat so I will try to get somekind of hard physical job that pays low. Something like a worker in constructions or something. Then I will rent somekind of ****hole to live. I will work the job I hate, after work I will come back to my lonely ****hole place and feel all tired and depressed, So then I will log on my computer and play somekind of MMO till late night. I would get my high level character in that MMO and would gank low level characters and call them noobs. By doing that I will let out my pathetic anger and despair on others. I wouldn't need much money for life like that and my ****ty job would work fine for me. I would eat very little, sleep little and shower maybe just once a week. I won't workout anymore or do anything else then play MMO's and go to work. Sound ****ing awesome doesn't it? Real ****ing hitting bottom plan. I won't need to try hard anymore, I won't need to think how to overcome SA and stuff. Life would be plain and simple. I think thats the way I'll have to go. Maybe I'm just not supposed to be happy and live fufilling life, maybe I'm just not supposed to achieve anything in life... Oh **** my bullshti again.